Friday, March 9, 2012

After Hearing ‘God’s Channel’

I was asked by some one very close to me to close my eyes and listen to this song. The following was what I felt:

When the song began, I could see a vast open area as if on the top of a hill. It had tall grasses that came up till my chest. The time was sunset, so all around it was bathed in orange colour. There was a strong breeze in which the grass was swaying. The point of view was mine, and I saw another girl, a young child a little away from me. She was wearing a plain white sleeve-less knee-length frock. She had open hair till her shoulders which was also blowing in the wind. She was fair and had a big wide smile, and her mouth was open in happiness. She was ahead of me, wading through the tall grasses, parting them and making way for herself with her hands. She would pause from time to time and look at me.

The scene then shifted to a beach scene. The same girl and I are in water that's till our chest. The waters are very calm and there are no waves. The time is the same, sunset, with everything orange in colour. I am, as usual, scared being in water, at the same excited. But the little girl is not scared at all and is enjoying herself.

Next scene I'm lying on a completely white surface. There is a very soft blanket-like plain white cloth under me, which I have kept on my lap and I am bending down to lie with my face on it with my eyes shut. The white cloth cannot be differentiated from the whiteness around. I feel very calm and relaxed and I am falling asleep.

When that part of the song comes, where the guy is saying something, I am still lying on the white cloth; but I feel I am hearing those voices from above me, as if there are people walking on the ceiling.

The overall feeling I got from the song was a feeling of suffocation, like the exact kind of feeling when you are chest-deep in water and there's that slight fear of drowning. That's why I was in water that was chest deep, and grass that was tall till my chest. In both the first scenes, I was scared, because of that feeling of suffocation, but looking at the little girl so care-free and enjoying herself, I derived confidence from her and felt safe that everything's ok. The orange colour all around me was soothing, but the strong breeze was a little uncomfortable.
I felt weightless throughout, and when I was lying on the white cloth, I felt my body going numb. 

When I actually opened my eyes after hearing the song, my hand had grown numb.


  1. well I fell asleep after the song. What a song actually.
    U must have experienced such bizarre things otherwise wouldn't have mentioned it. Nice piece.
    Tighten yr screw on yr writing. Its still loose. Work on editing and make it more interesting.

    Keep Writing

  2. Thanks for your feedback Pankul! :)

    Well this was my first reaction to the song in its absolutely rawest form, it is exactly how I wrote it, without any second thoughts, and that's why I didn't want to edit it or re-write it in a more presentable manner. I know it is a little dull and lackluster, but I wanted it to remain as the record of my instant spurt.

    Thanks a lot anyway...will write better pieces in future :)


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